honestly, idk if i'm in the right mood to write a blog post. it seems like a lot of effort, and i'm too fucking tired of everything to format this (or even write it) properly.
it's been a week since the last time i cut, so i mean good for me? i at least have something to be proud of. i've been supplementing one form of self harm for another, cycling between the two but ig i'm stuck in a rut for now.
school starts in a week and i'm nervous about how the other ppl will perceive me. i fluctuate a lot when it comes to my weight (BPing over and over and over will do that to u) and i'm currently hovering at around ████ lbs, which is a lot less than what i was at last year.
i definitely noticed some ppl staring when i threw out my lunch(es) last year, so i have that to worry about as well. i don't think i'm doing a very good job of keeping my ED a secret but it is what it is. ig i'll just have to toughen up to get thru this school year without killing myself.
~ wrap
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